Marvinic Ramblings of a Melancholic Mind


"Funny, how just when you think life can't possibly get any better it suddenly goes worst",
is what Marvin would say if he were to have a brain which is less than a planet. Why I refer to Marvin here, is not clear to me, so don't bother too much about it. I like Marvin a lot and just look for him in times like this. But if you still insist on knowing read on...

Nothing could have been more perfect than the last year, both professionally and personally. But deep inside there was a vacuous feeling. There was this sense of missing something, that something is not right. You see, sometimes you just feel like getting up, going to office, eating, having fun and at the end feel as if nothing that you did since morning makes any sense. While my mood has gone down the dungeons, I went in for some Good will hunting from the past, looking up for some of the bygone good times. And what better time can I think of than drooling over with laughter reading the "Hitchhicker's Guide to Galaxy". If something can make me smile even in sleep, it is this:

"Simple. I got very bored and depressed, so I went and plugged myself in to its external computer feed. I talked to the computer at great length and explained my view of the Universe to it," said Marvin. "And what happened?" pressed Ford. "It committed suicide," said Marvin and stalked off back to the Heart of Gold. I don't mean this exact line but the the character who delivers those lines Marvin.

Why am I blogging about this? after 194 days of absence from blogosphere, or for that matter any kind of writing except for the thousands of lines of code, that I spewed out in most robotic of fachions and hundreds of lines of documentation, at which I would certainly would not want to read.

I will tell you.

Digressing, Sample some quotes from Marvin:

  • I think you ought to know I'm feeling very depressed
  • Funny, how just when you think life can't possibly get any worse it suddenly does.
  • Do you want me to sit in the corner and rust, or just fall apart where I'm standing?
  • Why should I want to make anything up? Life's bad enough as it is without wanting to invent anymore of it.
  • Why stop now just when I'm hating it?
  • Life, loathe it or ignore it, you can't like it.
  • I won't enjoy it.
  • Wearily on I go, pain and misery my only companions. And vast intelligence, of course. And infinite sorrow.
  • Well I wish you'd just tell me rather than try to engage my enthusiasm.
  • Pardon me for breathing, which I never do any way so I don't know why I bother to say it, oh God, I'm so depressed.
Put the above in context and visualize how he would say it or how he would make others feel about it! I just love him.

Suddenly, I realised the reason for the melancholy. I haven't been doing anything I like, in the last few months, no runs, no blogging, no meeting friends, no photography, no reading, no learning new stuff, no new habits whoa.. !! I can go on and on.

In fact, I forgot how to do these things. Now to fight these inner demons of Newton's First law, I have come up with a plan, a Grand Simple plan. One thing at a time for a few days. The first step in this plan is right here:

i. I will blog for the next Seven days. One blog post a day.
ii. I will read atleast one hour for the next Fifteen days.
iii. I will be a Vegetarian(eggetarian) for the next Thirty days.

Now, each of those has some chanlenges considering my present geographical status. But, nothing can be more challenging than the third item.

Where do we go from here?? Hear it from Marvin:

"Now the world has gone to bed,
Darkness won't engulf my head,
I can see by infra-red,
How I hate the night."

He paused to gather the artistic and emotional strength to tackle the next verse.

"Now I lay me down to sleep,
Try to count electric sheep,
Sweet dream wishes you can keep,
How I hate the night."

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